So here I am, sitting in Narita Airport, with no wireless access, feeling sorry for myself. I said goodbye to my homestay family outside of the security gate, and now I’m waiting at the real gate waiting to board the plane. As much as I miss everyone back at home, I really don’t want to leave Japan yet. I know people won’t be too happy to hear that, but still. I’m leaving a lot of good friends behind, and unlike the friends (and wonderful girlfriend
) that I left behind when I came to Japan, I don’t know when I’ll be able to see any of them again, if ever. That’s a terribly depressing thought. Pardon my rambling. And pardon me while I put some Vanessa Carlton or something on my iPod.
Well, since I’m at the airport already, I guess that means that this update will have to be posted when I get back to the States. Sorry about that. The powers that be (or really, one of the very few powers that be) commanded (or requested, depending on how you look at requests from powers that be) that I do a final update. But instead of talking about what I’ve been doing, like most of these updates have, I’m supposed to talk about my overall impressions of the program, Japanese culture, Japan, being back in the United States, etc. Each one a huge topic by itself. Hmmm…punishment for having left home for a little over two months perhaps?
I think I’ll tackle the topics above in the order that I wrote them. So that means the LSA+ program as a whole is up. *ahem* “Please step forward to receive your judgment, Mr. Tokyo LSA+.” At least, that’s what I imagine they say in courts. I guess I don’t watch enough crime television (or enough television period, really). On a completely unrelated side note, “judgment” apparently doesn’t have an “e” after the “judg.” What is this nonsense? I don’t think I can possibly spell that word correctly on my first try. The “e” just feels so natural. Anyway, moving on.
The LSA+ was amazing. Most definitely one of the best experiences of my life, and I’d gladly recommend it to anyone considering Japanese at Dartmouth. It’s definitely one thing to speak a language in a classroom setting, once or twice every day (Oh yeah, drill counts as a class!), and another entity entirely when you’re in a country where roughly 99% of the population speaks that language. Relying on a new language 100% for daily communication hammers home a few things. One, it’s amazing how much Dartmouth manages to cram into our brains in just one year. Fantastic really. Two, it’s amazing how little Dartmouth manages to cram into our brains in just one year. Also fantastic. Being in Japan is a constant rollercoaster, where you alternate between being very proud of yourself for something (that you can actually recognize that obscure kanji on that sign you saw from the train window, or you can check-in at an airport entirely in Japanese, or something like that), and convinced that you’re never going to get any better at this god-damn impossible language (for instance, when you see the same kanji eight times in one day, and it only sticks on the eigth time…although maybe that’s just me. Damn you 期!). I honestly can’t decide if I really like or really loathe that feeling. On one hand, it’s great motivation to keep studying. On the other, it’s very depressing when you realize you’re not nearly as good at Japanese as you thought you were.
It was also very interesting, this program, because unlike class at Dartmouth, I didn’t learn much particularly tangible in class. Me, being me, had studied all but three of the grammar patterns we learned in class (either at Dartmouth or by myself), and most of the kanji wasn’t really new either (although the ones that were new were very useful). “So Christian, you’re saying you didn’t improve?” No, that’s not what I’m saying at all, although until about a month or so into the program, I was kind of worried that I wasn’t improving at Japanese (stupid stupid stupid). I just did most of my improving outside of class. That was probably the biggest downer about the program – I really would have liked to see the class be a little more challenging. But of course that would be difficult, because the range of skill levels of the people on the LSA+ was astounding. But in any case, I thought that actual class itself, for me, was a little bit redundant, and (ironically enough) actually detracted from my Japanese learning. But if a student’s main complaint about a program is that the class wasn’t hard enough, you’re obviously doing something right.
Like I said, I did most of my learning out of class – either by talking to my homestay family or my friends from my Hip-Hop Dance club. I learned a lot of really useful words (like 蚊に刺された – I was bitten by a mosquito), stuff you wouldn’t really expect to learn in class (like 弱虫 – literally weak bug, but it means coward), and some awesome words that aren’t immediately relevant to everyday life but awesome anyway (like 逆立ち – handstand). I also, as the first sentence of this paragraph indicates, made some really amazing friends that I’m going to miss a lot. We had a bunch of really fun times, dancing, going shopping for headphones (because I’m an idiot and broke my new pair less than a week after I got them), going to dinner, going drinking, talking until 2:30-3:00 in the morning about Japanese, English, and learning languages, etc. I’ve got Skype, Facebook, e-mail, and the prospect of returning to Japan (LSA+ director’s assistant perhaps?) to keep me from being too sad, but still.
The friends I made were definitely an invaluable part of this program, and are definitely part of what made it so enjoyable. The Dartmouth kiddies do interact a lot, but there’s only so much you can do with the same 15-20 people (most of whom you’ve have class with and are already really good friends with) in a small area where you don’t know what’s what, and people tend to disperse by around 5:00 at the latest, so you’ve got pretty much the end of the day all to yourself if you don’t make any Japanese friends. Also, Dartmouth kids, and I’m pretty sure this is safe to say, no matter how good they are, won’t be able to teach your about conversational Japanese nearly was well as, you know…real Japanese people. Having conversations with you. In Japanese. Makes sense, right?
However, in case the last few sentences gave the wrong impression, the other Dartmouth students on the program were amazing. I’m really glad I got to spend more time with some of my best friends in a new country, and I’m really glad I got closer to some other people. And I definitely learned a lot (of Japanese) from them. The one regret about the LSA+ paticipants is that they tended to be very cliquey. I don’t know if that happens every year, but by around week three, groups were pretty much set. That’s fine, since everyone had their friends, but I think it would have been nice to get to know some of the people that I didn’t really have the chance to get to know. But at the same time, if I’d gotten to know everyone on the LSA+ really well, I would have had no time for my (already made) good friends, my new Japanese friends, or my homestay family. What a conundrum.
Final note about the LSA+ – actually being in Japan. Not in terms of learning the language, but in terms of being a “tourist,” or a “sightseer,” or whatever you want to call it. Exploring a country that’s not your own. So many amazing things to see, to do, to eat. I think the LSA+ program as a whole did really good job of taking us places that are quintessentially “Japanese,” especially on the Kansai trip (which was so much fun, I can’t even articulate how great it was). Definitely added uncountable amazing experiences to my “list of things I will never forget,” and for that I’m very grateful.
All in all, the LSA+ was amazing. I think I’ve said that a few times. Anyone currently in Japanese at Dartmouth should go, and anyone currently not in Japanese at Dartmouth should get themselves signed up, if not to learn an amazing language, but to be able to go on this program. And with that, I think it’s time to move onto Japanese culture.
…I must admit to being a little bit silly here. It’s now September 12th – I never got around to finishing this after I landed in the States, but I have resumed finishing this up, once again at the insistence of the powers that be. Unfortunately, I don’t know if the other two sections that I plan to write, on Japanese culture and on being back in the US, will be as long as the one about the LSA+ program above. Forgive me, gracious readers.
I’ll start with Japanese culture. Obviously, it’s completely different from American culture. I’m sure there are tons of tiny details crammed into my head about how things differ, but even if I tried I don’t think I could readily come up with them. Most of them are instinctive and not really talked about, and you have to learn from following the example of the people around you. It’s not really something I ever gave much though to, to be honest. It was just something that you did. It iddn’t even really occur to me at how different everything truly was until my mom told me to stop slurping my soup in the Japanese restaurant last night – in Japan, it’s rude not to slurp your soup. Just one of those things, I guess.
But really, I don’t quite know what I should be saying here. As different as everyone’s backgrounds were from mine, it definitely didn’t get in the way of making friends. The people I met were pretty much like any other group of twenty year olds, with pretty much the same concerns, interests, etc. I figure where we really differed was in how we approached those concerns and interests. But overall, I found Japanese culture to be very easy to adjust to.
In fact, once I’d adjusted, I found myself getting slightly annoyed at some of the people on the LSA who just flagrantly disregarded culture norms. I’m sure I disregarded (mostly unintentionally) my fair share of culture taboos (like eating in the train – I was so hungry!), but for the most part I tried to respect the country’s way of running (like not shouting across streets, or campus, or whatever).
There are certain things that are definitely different from American culture though, and I think I’ll be drawn and quartered if I don’t mention at least some of them here. As some of you (may) know, the Japanese don’t wear shoes inside. Unless they are special inside slippers that don’t go outside. Ever. The Japanese are very fussy about purity, cleanliness (and with that, uncleanliness), etc. And someone, somewhere, decided that outside was unclean, so nothing that has touched the ground is supposed to touch the floor of your house, thus defiling it. So you take your shoes off in this little area that every house (and traditional restaurant) in Japan has, and then step up a little step into the main house. Fun fact – I took the laces out of every pair of shoes I had minus one to make getting in and out of shoes easier. Quite brilliant, if I do say so myself.
Other things that are different…well, people are significantly quieter, and much less forceful with their opinions. I sometimes wondered if the people I was speaking to had an opinion on what we were talking about, but I eventually got used to the fact that in Japan, it’s apparently not polite to have really hard, definitive opinions in public. Or something. I think it ties into this concept that the Japanese have, that you have a “public” face and a “private” face, and sometimes even a “self” face that no one ever gets to see, and what you can say when you’re wearing each face differs. It’s a little weird to Westerners, I think, but it makes for a very smoothly operating society, and no one there thinks it’s weird, fake, dishonest, or what-have-you.
But really, everyone was really cool and I’m glad I got to meet them, and that really they’re not nearly as different from American people as some would think. Superficially maybe, but…meh.
The last topic to be covered is being back in America, and what it’s like. I’m even more at a loss as to what I should say here than I was in the previous section. To be very honest, I haven’t experienced much of a culture shock while being back. Sometimes I think people are being too loud, but really, that’s about it. I haven’t done too much except laze about the house though, see friends, etc. Perhaps I’ll have different opinions when I go back to school. But I don’t really expect I will. Culture shock may just not be my thing, I think.
Being back is great though, so no worries there. The food is (still) good, it’s nice and warm (but not too hot), and it’s been great to see everyone who wasn’t in Japan. So no complaints about being back from me. That’s really all I can say. I loved being in Japan, it’s a great place, and I really look forward to going back. Thanks for reading.